Tranforming the love of food into a love for myself

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Inspiration...

Just a few photos and things that inspire me in this journey....

-my family- they are a constant support.. I cannot thank them enough for being my constant strength and joy. My brother who consistently kicks my ass and encourages me. You are my inspiration.

-My friends- for loving me yesterday, today and tomorrow... you are beautiful

-My Ryan- for believing in me when I do not have the strength to believe in myself..




Friday, July 6, 2012

#eatclean

I have fallen in love with the website pinterst... it is so easy to find awesome eating clean ideas and anything really.. I have found some great recipies and decided to make a few this week...

Behold.. no bake energy balls and baked oatmeal to go cups.... super cheap and super delicious.


Here are the recipies of the no bake energy balls I made, and the oatmeal to go bakes: Enjoy!


No-Bake Energy Bites
(makes 18-20 bites)

1 cup oatmeal
1/2 cup peanut butter (or other nut butter)
1/3 cup honey
1 cup coconut flakes
1/2 cup ground flaxseed
1/2 cup mini chocolate chips
1 tsp vanilla

Mix everything above in a medium bowl until thoroughly incorporated. Let chill in the refrigerator for half an hour. Once chilled, roll into balls and enjoy! Store in an airtight container and keep refrigerated for up to 1 week. I froze mine so they last longer!
PERSONAL SIZE BAKES OATMEAL TO GO
Ingredients
  • 2 eggs
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • 2 cups applesauce, unsweetened
  • 1 banana, mashed
  • 1/2 cup honey
  • 5 cups, Old Fashioned rolled oats { I used Bob’s Red Mill}
  • 1/4 cup flaxseed meal
  • 1 tablespoon ground cinnamon
  • 3 teaspoon baking powder
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 2 3/4 cups milk (I used 1%)
  • Optional toppings: raisins, walnuts, chocolate chips
Nutrition Info (without toppings)
Servings: 18* Calories: 143* Fat: 4g* Cholesterol: 25mg* Sodium: 32mg* Fiber: 4g* Sugars: 4g* Carbs: 23g* Protein: 6g*
Using the Weight Watchers Recipe Builder Points+: 3*
Directions
  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
  2. Mix eggs, vanilla, applesauce, banana and Stevia together in a bowl.
  3. Add in oats, flax, cinnamon, baking powder, salt and mix well with wet ingredients.
  4. Finally pour in milk and combine.
  5. Spray a 12 and 6 capacity muffin tin with cooking spray or use cupcake liners.
    Pour mixture evenly into muffin tin cups.
  6. If using toppings add them onto the tops of muffins now. If using fresh or frozen fruit, drop it right into the batter.
  7. Bake 30 minutes until a toothpick in center comes out clean. Cool and enjoy or freeze them in gallon freezer bags

Sunday, June 24, 2012

My Fitness Pal

I love the website http://www.myfitnesspal.com/ ... it helps me keep track of everything I eat in a day, the caloric intake in the foods I eat and the progress I am making. I have been using fitness pal on and off for the last year and in total since using it I have lost 65 pounds. I have gained some of that back, but am back loosing again since going onto the eat clean program. I am down an additional 15 pounds since starting the eat clean plan. I have not been as strict as I would like to be... but my body is feeling alot better and I am noticing the difference between when I eat clean and when I do not. So I feel like that is progress.

Also.. I am going back to the gym tomorrow! For the first time since I hurt my leg! I am SO excited! I only be going weight training and upper body cardio though so that I do not injure my leg while it is steal healing.... a small step in the right direction! YAY!

Saturday, June 23, 2012

I am NOT broken

Yes I struggle with emotional eating....

Yes, every day is a struggle to choose foods that are good for me, and re train my brain after 26 year of thinking one way about food to look at it as fuel for my body...

Yes, every day I struggle with my self worth and body image...

Yes, there are days that I do not know who I am...

Yes, somedays I feel powerless, and defeated and lost..

But NO.. I am not broken... and NO I will not stop fighting. Say what you want, judge me however you want.. I know my short comings better than anyone else and I am learning every single day to be okay with them.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Rabbit Food

Well... to be honest I have eaten crap this weekend... I started back to work and got tired and thus let myself eat things that are not exactly eat clean friendly. I still tried my best to choose healthier options, such as grilled chicken instead of fried.

I have been struggeling since going back to work with my leg, it swells alot when I work and I am pretty exhausted by the end of the day. I am going to see my doctor tomorrow to ensure that the infection is not returning AGAIN. I am left feeling very frustrated as I feel like I am trying my best to foster healing and it is not working.

Today, I am back on eating super clean- breakfast was my egg whites, banana and flax cereal

and lunch was a lovely combo of rabbit food:

Carrots, spinach, baby cucumber, almonds, walnuts and apple cider vinegar as dressing, 4 dried apricots on the side and blueberry greek yogurt for desert and lots of water.

I must admit I am getting used to the rabbit food...

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Breakfast of champions


Breakfast of champions- haha. Banana's and blueberries with organic flax cereal, almond milk and egg whites. YUM (340 cals)


Motivation compliments of my bestie Jen:


My biggest struggle to date: My want for sugar in my coffee and trying to break the habit that eating out in restaurant is my social life. Trying to re train myself to not have the desire to have an appy everytime I go to a pub or restaurant with friends.

My biggest accomplishment to date: I have lost 47 pounds and I feel a lot happier and healthier already

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Really want a coke.

I allow myself 2 cheat meals a week. Last night I ate Indian food for one of my cheat meals... butter chicken and nann bread and okra masala. It nearly killed me. The sauce too creamy, the bread too dense. I will NOT be doing that again.

Chose to make a meat free meal this evening for supper to be kind to my body after what I punished it with last night:


Spinach and mushroom salad (no dressing), corn on the cob and homemade sweet potato fries (sweet potato cut into shoe strings and baked in the oven at 400 degrees with nothing but some olive oil spray on them) for 45 minutes. The topping is plain Greek yogurt with lemon juice and Cayenne pepper. (290 cals).  YUM.

Not going to lie, the meal was pretty dam delicious but I could totally go for a glass of coke right now. Green tea instead.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Spinach Madness

So, its been a little over a week since I started going hardcore on the eating clean and I can honestly say that it does not feel like a diet and it does not feel like any effort. I do not really have any cravings for anything I used too, I think because I eat so often that my blood sugar stays stable. The only thing I do miss so far is pizza. Hahaha, but that can be arranged for a cheat meal.

I am feeling really good on this program though and I almost feel like I am missing something because it should not be this effortless. Do not get me wrong, it is costing me a fortune in fresh veggies and chicken... but it is still less money than I spent eating out every meal.

I talked to my brother this morning and was saying to him how amazing I am that I was unknowingly consuming SO many calories in a day and yet still not full or nourished. My brother at his heaviest consumed roughly 15 thousand cals a day, and I have not been far from it. I did not realize how many calories were actually in the take out meals I have been eating. For example, 300 calories for my XL double double I am so found of. Also, 800 calories for a foot long chicken sub that I thought was so good for me.

Don't get me wrong, Subway can be good for you if you choose the right things... everyone knows Jarred got skinny that way, but I am choosing to save some money and make my own lunches- sorry Jarred...


Things I eat for lunch now instead of Subway:

Homemade open faced chicken salad: chicken breast diced, tomatoes, green pepper, spinach and light dill dressing on Ezekiel sprouted grain bread (320 cals)




Tuna and spinach salad: Canned light tuna, spinach leaves, garden mix salad, cucumbers and green peppers. With lemon and balsamic olive oil vinaigrette (220 cals).

YUM!


Monday, May 21, 2012

RIP Double Double

I never thought I would see the day....... I actually ENJOY oatmeal for breakfast... it is delicious. AND I prefer it to bread.

I added a fitness pal application to my phone so I can track my calories... that one has been a long time coming... I am not exactly miss technology so it took me a long ass time to get it downloaded properly.

My biggest issue so far.... coffee... my god I love coffee with 2 milk and 2 sugar. But it has to go and I need to switch it out for only one black coffee a day. The world grieves the day that Kristie is only allowed black coffee.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

The Rules....

Since I am learning all about eating clean from the "Eat Clean Diet" book by Tosca Reno, I figured I would highlight the ground rules to this new lifestyle change.

First and foremost, this is NOT a diet, but a lifestyle... it is not set out to have overnight results, it is not a quick fix and it is not a bank breaker. It is simply choosing to make better choices and love my body once and for all.

Stats say that 80% of the formula for a beautiful body is nutrition, 10% is genes and 10% is training.

So, lets get into the principles of eating clean..... "you will have to eat more but make better food choices, eat regularly so you do not go hungry and eating several small meals a day to jump start your metabolism."

1) eat 5-6 small meals every single day
2) eat something every 2-3 hours
3) combine lean protein and complex carbs at every meal
4) drink at least 2 litres of water every day
5) try not to miss a meal, especially breakfast
6) Carry a cooler of eat clean foods to get through the day
7) Avoid all over processed and refined foods, especially white flour and sugar
8) Avoid saturated and trans fats
9) Avoid sugar loaded sugars and juices
10) Eat healthy fats
11) Try and avoid alcohol
12) Avoid calorie dense foods that contain little or no nutritional value
13) Stick to proper portion sizes
14) Rely on fruits and veggies to get fibre and vitamins

Sounds super easy on paper, but it is quite a lifestyle change. I will be honest, I am a fast food junkie and eat out junkie simply because I hate cooking. I find it much easier to pick up a sub on my way home from work then to come home and actually cook a meal. I am also terrible at drinking water (I drink coffee like it is water), and I skip breakfast too often. But no more.

A typical day for me pre- eat clean:

Breakfast: Tim Hortons coffee

Midmorning: cheese croissant or a muffin

Lunch: Take out (some form of Asian food or a sub)

afternoon: More coffee

Supper: A restaurant with friends for supper (Bp's, Brewsters) and sometimes supper was not eaten until 9 or 10pm.


A typical day now:

Breakfast:  Flax oatmeal with almond milk and agave nectar, 1 cup of blueberries, 3 egg whites and black coffee, and water

Midmorning: An apple or a banana, 3 walnuts and water

Lunch: Spinach salad with tuna, cucumbers, green peppers, carrots and water

afternoon: 1 scoop protein shake with a banana and water

Supper: Chicken breast with brown rice and broccoli with tea and water

Evening: 1 Greek yogurt cup with strawberries and more water


I may throw in a slice of Ezekiel break in there as well if I am hurting on the carb front.


So, there you have it... my huge adjustment. It is actually a lot of work for me to be eating so often. But I am really liking how I feel on the plan so far. I am not bloated, not hungry, and have lots of energy.

Friday, May 18, 2012

Fueling the Fire

I am going to take you on a journey. One that I am terrified to make public because it means that I have to be accountable for once in my life. I am setting out in the next year to change my life, and to change it for the better.

I am not sure where to begin, so I will start from the beginning. I have always been overweight. As long as I can remember I was overweight, and loved food. I was the happy chubby kid that still did everything that any other normal kid would do and so I grew up not thinking this was a problem. I would get negative comments from people who did not know me, but for the most part my weight never held me back from accomplishing anything in my life and so I felt that it was just part of me, and it was not a big deal.

It was not until the last few years when my weight climbed higher and higher and I had a problem. Getting my social work degree and understanding why people do what they do was also an eye opener for me as I began to face my addiction with food head on. I am an emotional eater to say the least, and the pain that I have endured in my life was stuffed with food. It has been my 26 year long battle and comfort in many ways.

I will explain more as to how I got to the place where I wanted change, but I will make a long story short for now. I got a really bad leg infection known as cellulitis in my leg. The infection was caused by a razor and it was left untreated for 2 weeks. By the time it was treated it needed surgery and I was on IV antibiotics 2 times. I have missed nearly 6 weeks of work and it left me terrified. While I know the infection itself was not caused by my weight, it has certainly contributed to my compromised healing. It has taken a long time for me to recoup from this incident due to where the incisions are located. The extra weight putting pressure on my leg has made it difficult for the wounds to close and I have hated it. This incident along with a long history of self hatred have propelled me forward into making a change.

A few years ago my little brother who also struggled with his weight took control of his life and was able to loose over 200 pounds working out and doing his thing. I am so proud of him and inspired. My best friend Jen also lost over 150 pounds which is also a large inspiration to me.

The biggest thing I am learning in being off work is that my change needs to happen from the inside out. I need to re establish a healthy relationship with food, and a healthy relationship with myself. I need to learn to love myself and treat my body like the temple it was designed to be.

So here, in this public forum I choose to use publicity as fuel to my fire. I will be blogging about the new eat clean program I am going on, the exercise plan and the change that follows.
I will be following a basic eat clean diet (most people associate eating clean with Tosca Reno, the one who made the diet popular). While I have Tosca's books and am a huge fan, I also know that eating clean is something that is not a fad, but a lifestyle and something that people have done for thousands of years before the birth of the McDonald's age.

So, meal plans, photos and my progress to follow, but for now... game on life.