I am going to take you on a journey. One that I am terrified to make public because it means that I have to be accountable for once in my life. I am setting out in the next year to change my life, and to change it for the better.
I am not sure where to begin, so I will start from the beginning. I have always been overweight. As long as I can remember I was overweight, and loved food. I was the happy chubby kid that still did everything that any other normal kid would do and so I grew up not thinking this was a problem. I would get negative comments from people who did not know me, but for the most part my weight never held me back from accomplishing anything in my life and so I felt that it was just part of me, and it was not a big deal.
It was not until the last few years when my weight climbed higher and higher and I had a problem. Getting my social work degree and understanding why people do what they do was also an eye opener for me as I began to face my addiction with food head on. I am an emotional eater to say the least, and the pain that I have endured in my life was stuffed with food. It has been my 26 year long battle and comfort in many ways.
I will explain more as to how I got to the place where I wanted change, but I will make a long story short for now. I got a really bad leg infection known as cellulitis in my leg. The infection was caused by a razor and it was left untreated for 2 weeks. By the time it was treated it needed surgery and I was on IV antibiotics 2 times. I have missed nearly 6 weeks of work and it left me terrified. While I know the infection itself was not caused by my weight, it has certainly contributed to my compromised healing. It has taken a long time for me to recoup from this incident due to where the incisions are located. The extra weight putting pressure on my leg has made it difficult for the wounds to close and I have hated it. This incident along with a long history of self hatred have propelled me forward into making a change.
A few years ago my little brother who also struggled with his weight took control of his life and was able to loose over 200 pounds working out and doing his thing. I am so proud of him and inspired. My best friend Jen also lost over 150 pounds which is also a large inspiration to me.
The biggest thing I am learning in being off work is that my change needs to happen from the inside out. I need to re establish a healthy relationship with food, and a healthy relationship with myself. I need to learn to love myself and treat my body like the temple it was designed to be.
So here, in this public forum I choose to use publicity as fuel to my fire. I will be blogging about the new eat clean program I am going on, the exercise plan and the change that follows.
I will be following a basic eat clean diet (most people associate eating clean with Tosca Reno, the one who made the diet popular). While I have Tosca's books and am a huge fan, I also know that eating clean is something that is not a fad, but a lifestyle and something that people have done for thousands of years before the birth of the McDonald's age.
So, meal plans, photos and my progress to follow, but for now... game on life.
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